2019 in review

my year reading and running

reading in 2019

I set a goal this year to read 52 books, after a couple years attempting to complete the proper 95 Books challenge and coming up short. Well, I came up short again, completing 45 books. I read some great books. (I also read some meh books.) Some weeks here I had no book to write about, and a couple other weeks I had a couple, or three; I think that one week I read three. Anyway, what I found this year more that other years is that I was chasing interesting short books to read and neglecting longer books just so that I can maintain this write-about-what-I’m-reading social contract that I have with the three of you who periodically stumble over here and read what I’ve written. So for 2020 I’m going to read differently and then just see what happens here. I’ll still track my books here and on Goodreads, but I will probably write a bit more often about other stuff that I read. My household has subscriptions to The New Yorker and The Capilano Review and THIS Magazine and recently (after long lapse) renewed the Believer subscription and there is bound to be something interesting to write about after reading in one of those.

Anyway, this is supposed to be 2019 in review, so let’s review.

45 Books Read
20% Non-Fiction
11% Poetry
60% by Women
9% about Running

Favourite Four of 2019

Why four? Because I was going to reminisce about three and then couldn’t decide which one to cut. In no particular order.

The Friend by Sigrid Nunez
The narrator’s longtime best friend dies and leaves behind a Great Dane that she ends up having to care for as she navigates her grief and reflects on her own life. Rich and insightful. Lit allusions and references galore. I will definitely read this again.

Conversations With Friends by Sally Rooney
A window of time in life from the perspective of early-20s Francis and her vapid friend and artistic collaborator Bobbi. Lots of people hate this book. I loved it. So much so, that Rooney’s highly anticipated sophomore offering Normal People, for me, fell rather flat. As I wrote back in week twenty three, if you’re thinking of reading them both, pick up this one second.

Grief is the Thing with Feathers by Max Porter
This one came out in 2015 so it’s had some time to disappear under the weight of mediocre Goodreads reviews. Mom dies leaving two sons in the care of Dad who is comforted relentlessly by Crow, a crow. Another book dealing with dealing with grief, part novel, part mythology, part poetry. I loved it.

Running Is My Therapy by Scott Douglas
After two books about death and grief and one about the banality of contemporary existence perhaps you need a run? I started running because I was sad and running made me feel better. I didn’t know why. This book explains why, and backs it up with science without getting sciencey. I’ve returned to it quite a few times already, and certainly will again.

The Whole List

Links back to the week they appeared on here

1. 80/20 Running
2. Sodom Road Exit
3. How Does a Single Blade of Grass Thanks the Sun?
4. The Third Hotel
5. Motherhood
6. Circe
7. Conversations With Friends
8. Bad Endings
9. The Friend
10. The Hungry Brain
11. Transcription
12. Lullaby
13. Vancouver Noir
14. There There
15. Goya The Terrible Sublime
16. Asymmetry
17. Trauma Head
18. Prison Industrial Complex Explodes
19. Port of Being
20. Running is my Therapy
21. Dear Current Occupant
22. It’s a Big Deal!
23. Normal People
24. When Running Made History
25. Daisy Jones and the Six
26. The Incomplete Book of Running
27. Kitchen Confidential
28. Altered States of Consciousness
29. No, Wait. Yep. Definitely Still Hate Myself
30. The Nickel Boys
31. The Knockoff Eclipse
32. Speedboat
33. The Story of My Teeth
34. Grief is the Thing with Feathers
35. Wilful Disregard
36. If You’re Not Yet Like Me
37. The End We Start From
38. The Body Artist
39. The Nature Fix
40. Bonjour Tristesse
41. All This Has Nothing to Do with Me
42. Jakob von Gunten
43. Berlin
44. Wanderlust, A Book of Migrations
45. Whatever

running in 2019

I set many running goals for this year and I surpassed all of them except for one. I had a really great year. It didn’t start out that way, and it didn’t finish the way that I wanted, but the middle bits were excellent.

Running Goals

Run a sub 20:00 5K
I’d never run a 5K until the Moustache Miler in late 2018. Then an injury early in 2019 meant I had to skip the Icebreaker 8K – my physiotherapist said no running farther than 5 KM, so I ran the Try Events Chilly Chase 5K and had a lot of fun. I didn’t sub 20 but came pretty close, and then chased 19:59 a few more times. The most notable will always be running 19:18 “moving time” on Strava but finishing the WestVanRun 5K in 21:48 after a delay when a train crossed the course. I’d take a couple more cracks at it on the road and the track but came up short, that is until the Eastside 10K in September when I crossed the official timing mat at the halfway point in 19:40. I can go faster.

Finish of the NorthVanRun 10K. I love this course, especially the pier-sprint finish.

Run a sub 40:00 10K
I came so close a few times throughout the year but it really came together in September. After hammering the first half of the Eastside 10K and surviving the dreaded hill rather unscathed I … came up short, finishing 40:19 for a new personal best and over a minute off of that course. I’d my sights set on the NorthVanRun 10K a couple weeks following, and my aim on Eastside day was an official sub 20 5K time, which I got. But I never looked at my watch once after 5 KM and I kick myself for it because I’m sure I could have found 20 seconds to go under 40 that day. Fortunately, I had a great run in North Van a couple weeks later, crossing the finish 39:22. It was a perfect race. The conditions were great, I gave it everything I had, and everything went great. I believe that I ran the the fastest 10K I could have run that day. They only way I’m going faster is by getting faster. (I can get faster.)

Finish sprint high-fives at the DreiLaenderlauf half marathon in Basel, Switzerland. I ran a lot of races this year. This wasn’t my best or fastest, but might be my favourite.

Run a sub 1:30 Half Marathon
I’ve wanted to do this since I started this stupid sport and ran my first half in 1:46:00 at the RunVan BMO Vancouver in 2016. It was harder than I thought it was going to be (I was pretty naive). I ran seven half marathons in 2019. I really raced just three. The First Half back in February was a load test on an injured achilles. Next I raced the April Fool’s Half on the Sunshine Coast – a tough course with some significant slope that kept me off my personal best (I’m looking forward to doing it again). Two weeks after racing the BMO Vancouver Marathon in May I flew to Switzerland and ran the DreiLaenderlauf half marathon – starting and finishing in Basel, and crossing into Germany and France. I was not in racing shape and faded hard but had a ton of fun on a beautiful course. My next serious attempt was at the Scotiabank Half in June. I had a good but not great day and finished a couple minutes short of my goal but with a new personal best. Then on about 12 hours’ notice I was offered a bib to run Seawheeze. I was completely unprepared – I’d hammered my Wednesday workout where team mates were taking it easy before race day, and I’d eaten poorly. It showed as I had a bit of a fade over the last few kilometres, but I still managed to lower my personal best. My last chance for sub 90 was the Victoria Half in October, and after great results in the 10K leading up to it I was riding a wave of confidence. And I had a great day. The weather, so often a factor in Victoria, was race perfect and I had a great run and a lot of fun, finishing 1:28:04. Unlike the 10K in North Van, I finished knowing I had more to give. I knew I was having a great day and even walked the last aid station. I can go faster.

Run a Boston Qualifying Marathon
I went into the BMO Vancouver Marathon in May not exactly riding a lot of confidence. It was my first marathon build with a professional coach and I was still pretty skeptical. The BMO course is unforgiving. A BQ for my age had just been lowered to 3:10 and I knew going in that I would need a spectacular day. I aimed high, but I’d set a B goal to run under 200 minutes (C goal is always to just set a new personal best). I went to the race expo to pick up my bib, and it was 199. I had a pretty good day. It started well, and started to fall apart around 37 KM, around the same time Mile2Marathon team mate Matt caught me and we traded shoving each other towards the finish line for the next 5.2 KM. I finished in 199 minutes: 3:19:48 for B goal, plus taking seven minutes off my marathon best. Not good enough for Boston, but I didn’t mind too much since Boston #125 in 2021 is the one that I want to run, which I learned means I need to run a BQ sometime between October 2019 and the close of 2021 registration sometime in September or October 2020. Oh, and for Boston #125, my BQ time changes to 3:20. I decided to race the California International Marathon in December; I figured that if it went terribly, I’d still have some time to figure it out and take another shot. And it went terribly. I’ve over-analyzed it to death and still the best I can come up with is that on that December day my body just said no. I had an excellent first half, and stuff went wonky at 25 KM then really fell apart at 28 KM. I reached 30 KM and if I could have managed to run the last 12.2 km in 5:00/KM pace I would have finished around 3:15 with a comfortable BQ buffer. It would not be the case though. I struggled over the finish line 3:24:33 for my second fastest marathon, but not nearly fast enough. I can go faster.

2019 had a lot of highs and a couple stinging lows. This one hurt a lot.

Run a sub 6:00 mile
This was a late addition to my 2019 goals. Nic who leads the Vancouver Falcons run club started up a track series for we kinda-olds. My first stab was in May and I ran 5:52 and I was pretty happy with that. Then at the end of the summer Nic added the mile to the 10,000 event he was hosting, and I took another stab and ran 5:52 shaving 10ths of a second off but less happy. My third crack was the November Moustache Miler on the Seawall at Second Beach in Stanley Park. A much slower course than the track, but I was is much better shape. I had a great run and was pretty disappointed when I crossed the finish line 5:59 and then I noticed that the course was 90 metres long. Strava says I ran a 5:41 mile that day, but I really wish that I had an official time.

Run a race each month in 2019
I though this would be a fun goal if I was healthy. So of course the very first race of the year I had to drop out of because I was hurt. My achilles flared up and my physiotherapist said no running farther than 5 KM, which meant no Icebreaker 8K. A search online and I saw the Try Events Chilly Chase with a 5K option and I was off to the races, as they say. And I signed up for just about everything that I came across and repeatedly set new personal bests along the way. It was a ton of fun, and I finished up 2019 having run 23 races.

This dork wearing all of the race medals from 2019, plus the St. Pat’s 5K pint glass. I like the idea of the alterna-medal.

THE WHOLE LIST

January:
Chilly Chase 5K (PB!)

February:
RunVan First Half half marathon

March:
WestVanRun 5K
WestVanRun 10K (PB!)
Saint Patrick’s Day 5K (PB!)

April:
Sunshine Coast April Fool’s Run half marathon

May:
RunVan BMO Vancouver marathon (PB!)
DreiLaenderlauf half marathon (Europe PB!)
Vancouver Distance Track Series mile (PB!)

June:
Pacific Distance Carnival / M2M Chase the Pace 5K
Scotiabank half marathon (PB!)

July:
VFAC Summerfast 10K
Take the Bridge YVR

August:
Seawheeze half marathon (PB!)
Vancouver Distance Track Series mile #2 (PB!)

September:
Eastside 10K (PB!)
NorthVanRun 10K (PB!)

October:
Victoria half marathon (PB!)
RunVan Fall Classic half marathon
RunVan Fall Classic 10K
RunVan Fall Classic 5K

November:
Moustache Miler mile-ish (PB?)

December:
California International Marathon

Other 2019 notables

Each year I set a goal to run a distance and the past couple years I’ve sort of opted out of declaring what it is, instead opting for the same number as the year. But really, I want to run farther than last year. Sure 2,019 is farther than 2,018, but in 2018 I ran just over 2,600 KM so I wanted to beat that, and I did, finishing up the year on December 31 with a 15.7 KM run around Stanley Park bringing my total to 2,757 KM for the year. Strava compiles this fun little year-in-review but I’ve skewed my results a wee bit by cycling 3,579 KM. But including my cycling, which I did way more than I ever have, I was active for 368 hours this year, or just over an hour every single day. I went for 254 runs in 2019, for an average of 10.85 KM each time. Here’s a nifty little infographic from Strava that compiles my running + cycling (plus a couple hikes too).

Tuesday surprised me, until I remembered that for nearly half the year I cycled 12 + 34 KM to/from the office, and then went for a lunchtime run on most Tuesdays so I guess it makes sense.
Warming up under the Burrard Bridge for Take the Bridge in the summer.

A few other things that happened this year, because A LOT happened this year: I somehow managed to get into the first Take the Bridge race in Vancouver. It’s a pop up, unsanctioned race where you get a couple check points an hour before the start, and how you get to them in order and then back to the start is up to you. There’s always a bridge involved, hence the name. Our race ended up being just under 4 KM and I ended up finishing 20th out of 40 guys (women raced separately). It was so much fun. In October I paced my first race – the RunVan Fall Classic half marathon, and then when I finished I raced the 10K, and then raced the 5K. I was one of 23 people who ran the first official Fall Classic Hat Trick. Pacing was super fun too and I think I did a decent job. I don’t believe in karma, but in 2019 I raced for charity twice. First, at the Scotiabank Half Marathon for the Capilano Review Contemporary Arts Society, and second at the Moustache Miler for the Movember Foundation. Along the way I managed to raise around $1,500, which I think is pretty great and since I don’t believe in karma (as I might have already mentioned) neither one had anything to do with my name getting drawn to race the World Marathon Major BMW Berlin Marathon in 2020. I guess I’m just lucky.

Coach Kevin Coffey and me at the Mile2Marathon 2019 wrap up social.

Probably the biggest thing to happen to my running in 2019, after starting off the year with another new injury Stephanie suggested that I hire a coach; an idea that I’d been sort of toying with for a while. I’d done some research and felt like I’d narrowed it down to two. I chose Mile2Marathon and Kevin Coffey, and once we got to know each other stuff really started to click. I had some pretty lofty goals coming into 2019 considering where I was at the end of 2018, and I crushed almost all of them. I am really looking forward to what’s in store for 2020.

2019 week forty four

Book Read
42. Jakob von Gunten – Robert Walser

Kilometres Ran
week forty four – 53.3

2019 to date: 2,251 KM

You had me at Kafka was a fan and I’m glad that I picked up this somewhat obscure classic from Swiss writer Robert Walser. The title character is a broke runaway from a well-to-do family who enrols in a school for servants called The Institute. The book is quirky and strange and reads a lot like a diary because it is Jakob’s diary. I liked it but I think that its charm might have worn off if it had gone on for much longer.

Last weekend I did something that I’ve never done before besides run three races one right after the other; for the first time I paced a race. When I decided to attempt the Fall Classic hat trick (before it became the Hat Trick) my plan was to run a pretty easy half marathon to start. Now I know what I’m like, so I thought it might be fun to pace and thereby force myself to stick to an easy pace and actually give myself a chance to finish all three. So I sent an email to RunVan offering to pace 1:45 Fall Classic Half Marathon.

At first I was declined, but then a few days later they asked to have a phone conversation, which I think was an interview of sorts. Once I’d fooled them into believing that I’m not some hack I was in! I was paired up with another first-time pacer. No bunny ears and we would be sharing the pacing sign, but luckily we did each get our t-shirt with PACER emblazoned on the back. We met about an hour before the gun and decided to alternate holding the sign each 5 km and he would start. The gun went and we were off and I did my best to stick to about 4:55 pace but I think I was a bit quick. My partner with the sign, was quicker. I kept him in sight but hung back trying to stick to the pace. I set my watch to read cumulative average and it was saying that I was still a bit quick. Early on someone asked me what time I was pacing and I said 1:45 and not to worry about the guy way up ahead with the sign. We crossed 5 km and then 6 km and then 7 km and I was still a ways back so we didn’t swap sign duties and I really started to second guess myself and the accuracy of my watch and the stress that set in that I was potentially letting a bunch of people down was not very much fun. I had a few hangers-on and they seemed content with what I was doing compared to their watches and we slowly gained on the crowd around my pacing partner. I came up beside him at at 9.5 km and offered to take the sign for the rest of the race.

Um, why is there no one around us? Photo by Kimberly Bennett

I really wanted to be close to pace so I was very curious and a bit anxious to see the clock at the 10 km mat. I called out to the group that the clock was coming up and to be on pace we wanted to be 49:40 – now granted that’s gun time and we were a few second behind the start, but that’s what I was aiming for. I came up to the mat and checked the clock when I crossed and it read 49:30 and I’ll tell you that was one of the best feelings I’ve ever had midway through a race. The second and half was a bit of a blur. A couple times I got a bit ahead of pace and my partner reeled me in.

Oh that’s a better crowd. Photo posted by RunVan

We really started doing math in our heads over the last couple kilometres. We both knew we were going to come in a bit early and had a bit of friendly debate about by just how much. The last kilometre I was shouting at everyone around me to give it everything they had left and not let us pass them. With a couple hundred metres to go I was pretty sure that those still with us were in a good spot, and we slowed up a bit and just kept telling people to RUN! Still it was a bit of a relief to round that last corner with only about 50 metres left to go and see the clock counting up 1:44. I crossed the finish line at 1:44:38 gun time and I’m pretty satisfied with that aim. I really wanted to be 1:44:59 and I might have been able to stretch it out if the finish chute was a bit longer, but 22 seconds is still pretty good and I know there were a few people happy crossing the finish line. Thanks for RunVan for letting me give pacing a try. I look forward to doing it again sometime.

With Stephanie at the finish. Photo by Debra Kato

2019 week forty three

Book Read
41. All This Has Nothing to Do with Me – Monica Sabolo

Kilometres Ran
week forty three – 49.0

2019 to date: 2,198 KM

I started reading a different book on my iPad this week and then forgot to put it onto my iPhone and I don’t get books through iTunes and I haven’t figured out how to sync stuff and frankly haven’t tried all that hard but anyway I opened my phone and then remembered that I a bit ago I was waiting around for something somewhere and started reading this Sabolo book and it was good and interesting but never finished so I started over and soon got more interested in it that the other book that I was reading, which I will probably finish reading this week. Maybe. The book tells the story of MS and her relationship with XX. It goes pretty much how you imagine, except it’s told through SMS, social media post, diary entries and other fragments. It’s dark and funny and sad and maybe not terribly original even in the experimental style that it’s told, but it’s just done so well that I was highly entertained. I liked this book. I also understand why many people do not.

Back in January 2018 I sent an email to RunVan suggesting that if they were to change up the start time of the Fall Classic half marathon to two hours before the 10 KM instead of 90 minutes that I suspected a few people would take a stab at running all three in a row – 21.1 KM then 10 KM then the 5 KM. I received a reply that read “We will take your suggestion under consideration….” Fast forward to the Fall Classic 2018, and it was status quo. But I was pretty lame after racing the Victoria Marathon, and attended the event on my bicycle and yelled a some friends. Fast forward again and low and behold the start times had changed, with two hours between the half marathon gun and the 10 KM, and then 90 minutes until the 5 KM. So I signed up for all three.

Fuzzy video frame at the start of the Fall Classic 10 KM, with fellow Hat Tricker Raymond Cayas.

Somewhere along the way some other people did too, it seems. After I signed up I was cautioned that I would DQ if I wore the wrong bib in the wrong race, or, as I was planning to do, wore all three stacked and shed one after each finish. I’m curious to know what happened because all of a sudden RunVan decided to start promoting a Fall Classic Hat Trick, and changed to registration to a package of all three races with a single bib. I don’t care why, but I’m very happy that they did. My plan going into the day was to run a pretty conservative half marathon around 5:00/km for a 1:45 finish, then a 15 minute refuel and wardrobe change for a 10 KM at marathon goal pace, and finish the day with a 5 KM cool down. The half marathon went exactly according to plan. The 10 KM less so. I went out way too quickly, averaging around 4:13/km over the first three kilometres and then crashed pretty hard. Goal marathon pace is around 4:30 and I finished 4:38 according to Strava. That still meant about a 40 minute wait until the 5 KM start. I put some compression sleeves on my calfs that were starting to cramp and added a t-shirt under my singlet because I was pretty chilled. The 5 KM went much the same as the 10 KM – I had a couple tempo kilometres to start, then finished at a Sunday jog. But this day was about finishing, not the really the clock (I will have more to write about this little factoid next week). I still haven’t checked my official 10 KM and 5 KM finish times. I don’t even care. I just wanted to run all three in a row, and I did it.

Pretty happy that is over. Half marathon, then 10 KM, then 5 KM for the Fall Classic Hat Trick. Photo by Dave Mallari

The other thing that RunVan changed up was the people running the Hat Trick wouldn’t get medals in the finish corral. Instead, they held a special awards after the 5 KM finishers awards at the end of the day, where they recognized the 23 women and men who’d completed the inaugural Hat Trick, and gave us each a really nice New Balance / RunVan hat and our three finishers medals on the awards stage. I am pretty damn proud to be amongst that group, and I especially love that it’s a pretty diverse group and one with a few friends and familiar faces from the running community. Would I do it again? I don’t know. The looped course is pretty but pretty brutal, and the thought of running it three-and-a-half times in a row again is a bit nauseating, but I recall finishing my first marathon – the RunVan BMO in 2017 – and saying, “Well, I never have to do that again.” Then signing up for another a couple weeks later. So never say never.